tired...i want nothing more than to crawl into bed and curl up. but alas, my son is wide awake, and god knows he won't be going to sleep for a while, so neither will i. let's see...today wasn't so entertaining. like many other days, in fact. they all start to run together after a while, i'm sure you all know how that goes. i would love for something to come along and break me out of this routine. ~grins~ why can't life be more like movies? why are we fed these impossible scenarios time and again, when we all have these completely humdrum lives that will never come close? it's my position that some of the greatest offenses to humanity are what comes out of hollywood. more on this tomorrow. can't type now...

~the next day~

okay...had to cut last night's bitching short because my husband was coming downstairs and i refuse to let him see my blog. i'm funny like that. so, where was i...ah yes, movies. (and if you've been exposed to my unhappy rant on this subject before, then skip this whole thing.) from the time that us girls are little, we dream about our prince charming. sooner or later these dreams get supplemented by the drivel of romance films. we watch, we get choked up by the sheer beauty of it all, and we decide that we want that, what we see onscreen. girls, do not waste your time. the best you will get is little snippets of movie perfection. no man is that great in real life, no matter what they say. and guys are suckered by this as well...how many times do you suppose a man, after meeting some great girl, goes off to tell their friends "she makes me want to be a better man." bah. i'm guessing never. i've yet to meet a man that was that swept off his feet by anybody. i can assure you, any improvement that kris has made over the course of our 6 year relationship expressly for love of me was slow in coming. there was this guy i was with for 2 years, he said he loved me, said all sorts of endearing stuff all the time, but every time i turned my back he was in bed with some other girl. was it me or was it him? let that idiot dehumanize me and make me this simpering whiny excuse of a girl...but i digress. we're forever pining for that pinnacle of relationship perfection, where you and whoever line in perpetual bliss. it doesn't work that way. i'm sitting here, trying to think of a movie that gives an accurate portrayal of the average relationship, and i'm drawing blanks. i know there is at least one, i just can't think of it. but you know what is a good movie? run lola run. i think it's a german film...i don't know. subtitles, anyway. really good movie. ~sighs~ i've totally lost my motivation for complaining about movies, so i'm going to switch topics. valentine's day is coming. flowers and chocolate is not always the way to go. just because tradition dictates doesn't mean you have to go with it. try something a little more personal...and please god, not a stuffed animal either. i got one once, from asshole-cheated-on-me-10-times-guy. it landed on his front lawn with the insides ripped out, along with a lot of other crap he gave me. if you insist on getting flowers, go for something a little more unique than roses. i know i like variety every now and then. it can be anything, really. just a token of genuine affection and not a heart shaped box filled with chocolate covered cherries. i fear i've gotten really incoherent with this post, what with me watching tv at the same time...but if you know me, you know that i say lots of things that don't make sense, so chalk any strangeness up to that.