what is it about this time of year? it seems to push people to extremes. bad season for the bi-polar. i'm sitting here with my tasty coffee (you non-coffee drinkers are heathens and you WILL be punished), killing time before i get in the shower, and i'm thinking. last weekend before christmas? i'm gonna be so tired by the point i come home. but helping people keeps me busy, instead of me standing at the info desk and using the computer to order far too many cd's. everyone listen to pete yorn. folksy but current. i love it.and if you know me well enough, you know it has to have a few good whiny depressing songs on there. i AM only happy when it rains. oh, and the smashing pumpkins greatest hits is worth picking up too. such a good band. pity billy got all full of himself, but he's bald, so i forgive him. i picked up "The Redemption of Althalus" by Eddings (jake, i swear i tried, but i couldn't find the first book in any of the other series at the moment - the point is, i said i'd read and i will, i am, even) and its not too bad. not quite "Office Yoga", but...i'm very good at the tree position, i'll have you know. i'm small, i'm still fairly flexible, and since life is far too hectic for me to get to doctor wong and i want to relax, i'll just manage a bit of uncomfortable stretches. if only i could find a class where moms bring their kids...and i've got to start learning massage as well. good for my marriage. thank god i can get this stuff at work. of course, after next weekend barnes and noble will be taking a break while kris works his ass off. i'll miss it. i love my job, but things are how they are, and i know i'll go back eventually. at least i'll have a computer to pour my anxiety into. and you guys. lots of anxiety coming your way, or maybe just bubbly happiness, whatever's up at the moment. i'm honestly such an up person - but i know enough not to spout sunshine all day. i know those people, i hate those people, i'm more of a silent optimist.
i think i'm done. off to spread holiday cheer to the masses while distributing literature and enriching lives and singing along loudly (yes, i CAN sing, thank you) to the christmas carols. gonna go slap on my make-up and get civilized. love ya. ~smooches~

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do. -Rumi