i'm going home tomorrow. i can't or shouldn't put it off any longer. i like home, i miss it, but it just doesn't compare to being HOME, with your family and being taken care of. who'd give that up if they didn't have to? ~sighs~ being able to get online has been nice, but until we get this new whatever, at least i can get here and to my e-mail at the library. (stuffie77@yahoo.com - huge hint.)

i'll miss being able to see everyone i call my friends. sometimes it feels like our relationships are a little shallow...i want to know you better, and i wish you could know me. unfortunately, there's only so much that translates over a keyboard, and we're all different people on different days anyway. sometimes i want to bring you close, sometimes i want to strangle you...for what it's worth, i love you all, as much as you can love people who are and aren't strangers. you all bring something into my life that wasn't there before you and is noticibly lacking without you. hmm - could this be any sappier? i'm going to wash my car...

...and death is to begin, caress, i think it's a sin...